You Smell Like Christmas

So today I went to go see Paper Heart and that was I think a really good funny, yet also somewhat informative movie for me. It was good because i'm looking for an answer for What is love as well. The movie wasn't particularly useful, but it's nice to know the journey to find love. And of course there are so many different varieties of love, different definitions. And it's strange because for such a concept of love, there is no absolute definition so I wonder why we call such an intangible, indescribable feeling love when nobody really knows.

Aside from that, it helped me with my dream that I had last night. It was about Tina. It was very strange because it was about love. Heres what I remember, Tina and I were like dancing like ballroom dancing.. I've always wanted to ballroom dance with Tina and when we did it was fun. But basically in my dream we were ballroom dancing and slow dancing in a room. Then later as we were finishing up, we both looked in each other's eyes and she said it. She said I love you in the most passionate and most caring way I ever could have imagined. And right there I instantly fell in love with her all over again, butterflies in my stomach, everything. It was like pure euphoria. I still kinda can't believe it though because it never really did happen to me. I remember that Tina and I did say I love you at some point, but it was never like constant. It was more like she said it or I said it just to see what would happen, or to just get it out there. But I knew that when she said it, she didn't mean it like in my dream. I never said it and I 100% meant it in my dream. I could have, but I think it would've freaked her out too much. You know, I kinda did wish that she meant it at one point so I could mean it too. To feel that kind of happiness from another, well I guess that was love that I felt last night, at least just a taste of it.