And I have to say why I played this song tonight. Well because I was thinking of you and what's happening. I suppose... it was related to you, your situation, and the friendship that you have with me, and the problems you've been through..And I guess I wanted to take in all that evil and pain and just disperse it for you. And then i'd disperse it through this song. I think I did quite a job.
Anyway the reason of why I wanted to write this was because... something that has been bothering me. Ever since it happened, I couldn't really let it go. Well I was doing my laundry and so I didn't really have time to think too much, but even so just sitting there on my bed after laundry, I couldn't come up with a full concrete on the spot soothing advice to help you. And sorry, I was talking about your self-image. Because you aren't worthless. And it hurt to have you say that, and it made me angry because it's really fucking bullshit that something happens to you who doesn't really fucking deserve it. (Yes that was two fucks in a single sentence). Anyway I feel terrible in a way just because I couldn't come up with a reason on the spot when I was throwing my laundry in the hamper, other than the lame reason of.. YOU JUST AREN'T. And it was painful to hear you cry over the phone saying that you that he and him did the same thing in a way... andd... I really fucking wish they didn't do stupid shit. And so I wish it didn't happen.. because it hurts too much to see your sad face and I wish I could fix it, but I can't.
