Foggy days

Second week on the job, 7th day total. Already made 230 dollars woo! Pays for my head unit and most likely a new fuse cause I blew one out attaching the wrong wire together gr. >< Oh well, more knowledge and the fuses only cost like 10-15, nothing major in the couple hundreds.

It's been a week since you've left though andd I'll be honest I thought about you today while working, mainly because I was kinda bored. I guess thinking about you have been toning down. I don't miss you a lot. You know, at first I was going to say I'm going to miss you before you left, but then I shouldn't only because I think of "I miss you" 's as kind of a boyfriend girlfriend thing so I didn't. Not really important, just thought I'd throw that out there in case that ever crossed your mind. Which is whyy I'd very rarely first say i'll miss you if you didn't do it first. There was a time when you said you missed me and i said aw I miss you too, which was like during AP testing.

But I have been taking your advice, if i'm not spending time with you, i'm spending time with my other GREAT friends. Mostly Pedro, watching movies with him, which have been indeed, good movies and that's always fun. No idea where the heck is lester @_@ when I call him, he's busy lol. Talking to Marisa and Emily for problems that I may have. Also putting it out there. You know I told Marisa about graduation, your graduation. But before I tell you about that, I'd like to say that it's really REALLY great to have friends like Marisa who go "what the fuck? " , which I never see until someone does that because I'm severely blind by emotion. Heres what I said:

Oh man, LAHS's graduation is on the 4th. Do you think I should fly back?
What for?
Well to watch Diana's graduation.
>_>
Too extreme?
Yup.

And that was the water'd down version, but that's essentially what happened. And when you read this, it's not that I didn't want to, I really want to, but after thinking about it, it's going to be really inconvenient for me @_@ Mainly because I'd have to spend like 140 dollars to fly back, have my mom pick me up, while taking a day off. THen I'd have to drive all the way to los altos to watch you for like 2 hours, have a what I think will be an awkward confrontation with your parents and then spend time for like 30 minutes taking pictures, which I think I will only be in 1 maybe 2, and theeen you're off to grad night and I only spent like an hour with you. An important time in your life though, but man, gotta drive back, then fly back the next morning. Theeen study for finals.

Opportunity cost? (The thing I could have been doing instead of doing all of that?) Studying for my finals so my GPA doesn't drop. Yeah... also important. So I know like I KNOW that you'd understand and saying sorry to you would be like oh nooo I understand silly :P

So as for now, my point was it's really good to have friends who kinda go dude you're being crazy again. And do that check. And also, I think I told her so I could get that response, meaning I need to talk about you, what would I do for you, only to get a no answer from somebody else so let myself know that I'm not crazy for saying no. Basically getting some support...