Adelaide

This may come to you as a surprise, but I've always wanted a baby sister, a little sister. Maybee 2 or 3 years younger than me. That would put her at 16 years old or 15 years old. A girl in high school, who just finished sophomore year and going to junior year, or she's finishing junior year and going to senior year. And i've always wanted a baby sister, just cause I wanted to have the role of an older brother. To me there's a difference between being an older brother if you have a younger brother and being an older brother of a sister. One I think that being a brother to a younger brother would involve a lot of fighting, some competition and I would imagine a lot of ball punching in our younger years. Hm I'd say the biggest reason for wanting to have a younger sister is so that she can rely on me as an older brother. Not exactly like a boyfriend, although I can do many of the things a boyfriend can, like giving her rides or buying her food. Most of all I just want to protect my little sister from something or someone. This doesn't have to do with any of my friends or anything, I"ve always wanted a sister since I was little. I remember I used to ask my mom if she could have another baby even though I was like 6 or 7 year old. And I wanted a girl and my mom asked why and I said, because I wanted a beautiful sister who I could love and protect with all my heart. That's exactly what I said. Pretty corny huh.

Anyway, I had a dream a few months back. I don't really remember it anymore other than I was running with a girl, who was apparently my sister. Her name was Adelaide and she was a beautiful girl. Except I remember that we were poor, kinda like slumdog millionaire, but not that poor. We didn't have a home, we didn't have any money. But the area wasn't as poor as like India. There was modern civilization and everything, it's just that we were well, poor. We used public showers to get clean and as long as I can remember in my dream, I would always have to bail Adelaide out of trouble, because she was a feisty one. She would always get into trouble, and I would have to bail her out of trouble. Saying stuff like sorry it's just a girl she doesn't know any better and she wasn't brought up as well as I. And other times when she would get into trouble, I'd always have to take the hit and either run or get beat up. It would always end up with, "sorry big brother, I didn't mean for you to get hurt" and I said "that's okay, it's what i'm here for, it's what big brothers do" and I would always say that with a smile so genuine, it'd make her smile as well and she would always fully believe me. Except in my dream, I would never ask for anything in return, I'd never even asked her to stop making trouble because it'd get me in trouble. It was so strange. It was like my whole life's job and commitment was for her and to love her as my baby sister. In a sense it made me seem useful. Because we had no home, we were all we had. Each other. We didn't have anywhere to go. In fact, Adelaide would always just come up with the most random places to go and we'd always try to get there the best we can. I remember in my dream I would always get a ride, and the ending of my dream was just we were riding on a pickup truck driving away in a sunset going... well wherever she wanted to go. And frankly I never complained and I never cared where we would go. Hm Adelaide, maybe one day I"ll name my kid that, a girl :D