Loneliness?

I have to admit, it's pretty lonely to be back. Back at UCSD, there was always someone to talk to, but I wake up everyday, spend almost all my day with nobody but myself. I guess I wasn't ready for that.

I think it's hard to hide sadness, and loneliness, but I do it anyway. Maybe I really should get a job. It feels like that's the trend these days huh. Maybe that'll keep me busy and keep my mind busy. And I'll have something to look forward to at the end of the day, even simple as having good food or chatting.

But this home wasn't the home i expected. I feel like I have everything, yet all I found was that I have nothing.

Another note to myself, don't expect good things to happen, even if you feel that you deserve it.

Forget it.

I'm going to sleep.