I don't know if you have noticed but I am a little irritated. And to be honest I feel really stupid writing this and I say that because i'm always complaining and it's starting to make myself feel stupid. Let's face it, i'm pretty needy. I'm sorry that if you saw or rather felt that I was angry or weird or something. I felt that I may have something that made you upset, maybe I didn't but i'm sorry anyway.

SItting here, I don't really exactly know why i'm sad. Irritated yes, I'm irritated because of the little things such as not talking to me or just you being busy. And none of that's your fault. I guess I really am too needy, and I just expect too much again.

You're absolutely right, you shouldn't have to talk to me all the time, that's such a ridiculous request. It's stupid, i'm stupid. What was I thinking. I still give you props, you lasted out many times longer than anybody every did regards to talking to me frequently, everyday for many months before it stopped. I'm glad I was there. But things never last forever, and eventually we all lose the battle against time. You don't have to anymore, it's starting to seem like a chore now right? How pathetic am I..

The thing is, you never did anything to me. Be happy in the future, I feel like this is the price you paid for being busy in order to get where you are. There were many times I was jealous of you, but also proud of you. All that because you work hard. I probably knew this already. I know I could've done it too, I trust that I have much perseverance. I just knew in my heart I felt that I would have to give up so much though, and it didn't seem worth it. Just be happy for me then, wherever you are, or wherever you'll be.

You'll never see this anyway.

No I was was wrong, look at my yearbook