Immovable Pedestal, Part 2

Well hopefully you haven't forgotten that I still like you more than a friend, but I still hold that we shouldn't date so you shouldn't be too worried about that. And it's just something I want you to know throughout the entirety of this blog.

Anyway, do you remember how hm not to name any names but he used to like you and you said something like forget about me and find someone else and he said there is no one else. And just to clarify

8:07:10 PM blubrry x3 icing: this is what the bio book says
8:07:16 PM blubrry x3 icing: "The heart sounds heard with a stethoscope are caused by closing of the valves"
8:07:21 PM blubrry x3 icing: boring so far
8:07:22 PM blubrry x3 icing: then it goes on
8:07:23 PM blubrry x3 icing: "(Even without a stethoscope, you can hear these sounds by pressing your ear tightly against the chest of a friend – a close friend)"
8:08:58 PM Steven Fong: wow
8:09:07 PM blubrry x3 icing: HAHAHA
8:09:17 PM blubrry x3 icing: "The sound pattern is "lub-dup, lub-dup, lub-dup."
He says... "its like the writer just lost it..."

And now you know who he is. And what I have to say is I can kind of relate to him now. Do you remember the previous post that I had, immovable pedestal, I believe. I guess that's it, you really are immovable haha.

If I were introduced the prettiest girl tomorrow and we were friends after that, I don't even think I could bring myself to date her, only because you are such a big part of my life. To be honest it scares the crap out of me, how I can think so much about you and not her. I suppose it shows how much you mean to me. And I wouldn't say that this is bad, I guess i'll remind you again that I'm not doing to date you silly. It's just I'm not sure if I can date another girl, which -- okay here is a clearer explanation of guy logic that just doesn't even make sense to me.

Okay, I cannot date you. At my age, I believe I should be dating, you know experience, loving someone, caring so much about someone, and so guy logic says I should date someone that is not you since that makes logical sense. But emotional says, what about you? And that question just has so much impact behind it that it basically wins over guy logic and i'm like stuck going oh, yeah I don't know what to do now >_>.

I guess the answer right now is to just not date anybody. But maybe next year that'll change. If I were to meet the prettiest girl tomorrow and not date her, well that's just hypothetical. If we were truly friends and had some chemistry going on between us, who knows? But for some reason, I am very damn well sure that you still take priority over her.

So for next year, it's either don't date at all, or go find a girl that I like and just develop a strong bond, and see where that goes. Okay seriously man, it's not your fault :P cause I know you'll think that and you'll just say Just MOVE ME DOWN!

That's the problem with me, I know I have your permission to move yourself down, but do I want to move you down?