Insomnia

Tuesday night I couldn't sleep. I only vaguely remember what I was thinking about. I just remember I was actively thinking, and I got too "caught up" that I couldn't stop thinking about it and thus I couldn't sleep. Basically I kept myself awake, a fairly effective strategy I might say. And I know I fell asleep because I remember I completely finished thinking about it, I would try to sleep half way through with half thoughts but it seemed torturous, I was only reminded of how tired I was at 5 am.

I was thinking about a very silly thing, to be honest. I was thinking what would it be like to go on a date in college. Sadly I'm not sure if I ever went on a date with Tina. Maybe I have. I recall two moments with the highlight of date in mind. One was at Chevy's with Andrea Valerie and Julia and of course Tina. Tina and I had our own table. THe only reason we went was because they had a special or something. Actually I remember it to be either we finished our food really quickly, and we got bored and thought it was weird for us to have 2 different tables so we joined them. I wouldn't say this was really a date date, maybe cause we did eat together at a table, just the two of us. Not too spectacular as you may think. Another time was when Tina and I went minigolfing. I don't remember if there were more people involved, I think there was. I think Pedro was there but I don't seem to recall 100%. I do remember that, it was also the day that I actually got a hole in 1 on the 19th hole, you know the last LAST hole where you try and hit the ball into the small tube but RARELY ever goes in. I hit mine in, no luck and Tina was like whatever you can just do it. I hit it in, siren goes off everybody stares at me haha. I would have to say that would be a really nice perfect moment for a date too. Obviously I was like SHE HIT IT IN!! It was quite cute I suppose, and she still had her golf club stick thingy. Sadly she didn't let me off the hook and I had to take credit for it and if you hit it in golfland gives you a free pass for next time. Turns out, as I was looking at my previous wallet, I still have that free pass. Too bad it expired already. That may have been a date, but it seemed like hanging out.

Isn't dating also hanging out? Maybe perhaps with more intimacy. Personally I don't thikn Tina and I are one for PDA, although there was that one time in English class that Oliver was like Can you guys stop holding hands or something. We were poking each other, it was quite cute as well. Really embarrassing now that I think about it. Imagine how awkward it was for Oliver to just kinda watch us poke each other in class. Kinda disrespectful, definitely distracting. Makes me not want to do PDA ever again in public

Anyway, foreshadow of things to come, I'm sure you'll be able to figure out what I might say in my next post, maybe the next one after that. I'll get to it. Maybe I won't.

I'm sorry, I was thinking about my first date in college. How it would turn out, how it would play out. Heres how I imagined it. She definitely has to be cute in a way, probably not short, long hair is a definite yes least past the shoulders straight, maybe curly. I always thought the perfect height of an asian girl is about 5'5 to 5'6. I know that I may be 6', but I always thought maybe for an asian It's a little bit tooo tall, cause then I would want to find a girl slightly taller, 5'8 5'9 just so I can kiss her easier. Kind of a lame reason but I'd rather take a girl who's around 5'5 to 5'6. I just prefer that height. Let's see she's also well toned, she doesn't have to be super athletic, abs and all that. Maybe go running every once in a while once or twice a week at the gym? Maybe with me? :D Definitely has to be super nice, but with a unique personality, something about her that keeps me interested. She doesn't have to be a mystery. I want to be able to uncover the pieces of her life bit by bit, putting them together to form a beautiful picture, of her the way I see her.

I want it to happen like this. I always think a real date is a cliche movie and a dinner. well maybe not the movie, but definitely dinner! My imagination split two ways one restaurant and one home/apartment cooking. Of course, I'll tell you both.

If it was at the restaurant I'd want to dress nicely, but not too formal. I guess a nice shirt would do. I would have to say, if she wore a tshirt, jeans whatever I'd be cool with that. Hm in my mind a semi-formal dinner attire, would have to be a dress =_= Maybe not a fancy prom dress, but a black dress. I think I love black dresses on girls. I think it makes them look really striking, sexy, and super cute all at once. I guess i'm a fan of hair too, if she has long hair, I would guess she has to do something with her hair. As a guy I never know how long or the effort it takes to make a girl's hair look great, or the amount of fasting or exercising she must do before a date or a dance. As for myself, I don't need too much work, a shower, a nice shirt, nice slacks, gel my hair and shave, and put on nice aftershave so I smell decent. And that's it, prep time is an hour at most. And i've heard girls taking 5 hours to get ready. wtf @_@ Props girls, I give you props. But it is just the first date, whoever spends that much time for a first date, must either really like me or just likes to look extremely nice. Either way, it definitely will have an impression on me. i would like to think that, if you look different on a date than what I see you at school, then you already made an impression. I know some guys like to gel their hair all the time, everyday. I never want to. Why? because when the occasion comes and you ran out of time and you don't gel you hair, people think you just went down a step. Since I don't, people won't care, but if I do gel my hair they think OH snap Steven did something different, he's making an effort to look nice. And well, to be honest guys don't have a lot to do to make themselves look different, girls do.

So that's how she'll dress, maybe with some earrings, not super long ones or like studs or anything, just a simple decorative short earring. No nail polish, I never really understood that. I like the natural color of a girl's nails. And for restaurant, we're at Rock Bottom, which has to be one of my most favorite restaurants ever, expensive yes. But I really like their food and their service cause it is really top quality. Of course I"m paying, because I would have asked her out on this date. We would laugh and talk and even though she may argue for the bill and having a good time, I would have to say, I asked you out, so i'll pay. But if she reallly has a problem with that then fine we'll split. But instead what i'll do is, I'll pay for the check and she can pay me back in whatever she wants, either money later or maybe even something for me later on. Pretty slick yeah?

But sadly I spent most of my time thinking about the home cooked version. It'll be the same attire, either she'll come in a tshirt or decked out in a nice black dress. I will always choose to have gel hair and nice shirt and pants. What'll happen is that I am a great cook and so I will basically cook anything :D First when I would have asked her out I definitely would have asked, so what do you like to eat? And then probably ask her out then to eat at my place for the nice and probably add in. dress nicely or something. I do wonder how I would have to ask a girl to eat at my place but make it a date. Obviously asking a girl out to eat, is more like a date, asking her to eat at your place doesn't really sound like a date, it just sounds like getting lunch at Subways. Or meeting up to go eat at a fastfood joint. Maybe I would've added in, "Oh if you want, dress nicely!" And I would've said that with a smile. If she didn't dress nicely, well I would've considered it my fault for not making it clear. Hm because this is my fantasy, I say she loved seafood. So I cook... SALMON for her :D Actually I in reality I would've asked her oh what kind of seafood. But for now let's just say salmon for simplicity. So I cook salmon, one plate for her and one for me with like a huge slab of super fresh expensive salmon. Cooked very tenderly and nicely with oyster sauce, the same way my mom cooks it, I love it. But that obviously can't be it, I cook a few other dishes, such as pork and also some veggies perhaps baby bok choy, or A cai , or steamed brocolli and of course every nice fancy dinner that I'll ever make will have to include goood home made soup. Bones from pork would be simmering in the pot, and I would add in carrots, lettuce and wintermelon. Much of this is home food. And of course, First thing is the soup, and then bring out everything, the main course salmon and a bunch of other foods.

And I imagined to be... Hey come to my place at 7 and come hungry ^__^
She would arrive punctually at 659, Very close to 7, I love being punctual for formal things. But being realistic here, I wouldn't know exaclty when she comes so I start cooking the salmon right when she first knocks on the door, but of course I have everything prepared. One of my roomates gets the door and they welcome her in. What she wears, doesn't matter at this point and I welcome her and I pull out the chair and say take a seat :D Already the soup has been made and the pot is being kept warm on the stove. I quickly get a bowl for her and myself and I give her a bowl full of soup and ask her to give it a try and tell me what she thinks. My roomates actually head out now, and leave the whole apartment to my date and I for a few hours and on the way out Jarod says, You are in a BIG surprise, STEVEN'S COOKING IS AMAZING!! alright Steven we're out cya later!! They'll head either to cafe V or OVT for dinner and they'll take 2-3 hours we planned this out before hand. So my date and I will have a nice quiet dinner time to chat and talk about ourselves while having a delicious meal. I tell her try the soup and tell me what you think. Sorry the salmon isn't done yet, I wanted to make sure that when you get her it would be straight out of the frying pan. She may be even really surprised, One i'm cooking, and two I'm making all these dishes that are already done or very close to being finished. At first she may even be blown away at the soup and everything such great hospitality right? And she even is surprised by the fact that I got salmon and salmon I think isn't really cheap =_= it's pretty expensive. Anyway she even be surprised at that. Well i start cooking the other dishes first, the veggies and pork. I finish and then I put them on the table and I say, Oh the right let me get you a bowl of rice too. And so I scoop her a bowl of rice and she waits for me. I finish the salmon and I bring the frying pan over and I give her the larger salmon piece and finally I finish cooking. The food Looks Great. Steaming salmon straight out of the frying pan onto her plate. And I say, okay done cooking let's eat!! She must be impressed that not only did i make an effort to dress up, but also put out all this food for us to eat. It must really be something. Well she eats it and finds it amazing. Everything is perfect :D If she didn't dress up or do anything special, she apologizes for not doing anything. I say it's alright, and I say I just wanted our dinner to be a bit special, that's all. She smiles poltely and says Thank you.

And that's how we begin. I personally think how it's amazing to able to make such an impression on a girl with not a lot of money, I would assume all that material of food cost about 20-30 dollars. Obviously with a crapload of leftovers too. I don't think she and I would eat everything, meaning this meal for both of us maybe have been just a mere 10-15 dollars. 10 dollars, plus 2 hours of food prep time, 1 hour of getting ready to look nice plus a summer's work of getting good at cooking, and one very lucky girl who'll get blown away for all i've done, equals one of the best and most memorable nights i'll ever have in my life. So worth it.


Damn my insomnia. I was finally able to go to sleep after finishing it right there. And now I'm hungry XD BREAKFAST FOOD TOMORROW MORNING FTW!