Unmotivated

I think lately I've been feeling lonely and a bit unimportant. I feel like i'm not really wanted or needed for something like significant that is. This has to do a lot with the fact that I've been doing nothing lately and it's definitely been taking its toll on me. The only really thing I've been doing is playing cs playing piano and watching youtube videos. Holy crap can my life any more boring? I know it's probably my fault but I don't know what i'm going to do. I had a plan to program and continue on with my rpg project but I stopped 2-3 weeks into it and I stopped around the beginning of July. It's almost September now so I'm long overdue. I just don't feel motivated to work on the project and I dont feel motivated in general. I just don't feel needed. I worked long and hard on the rpg project for Diana and it was because it was for her birthday as a present. Now that it's passed I'm not sure who I"m working it for. I want to say it can be for myself but I dont have the motivation to do it. I can surf the internet but I don't even feel like doing that. I can read some news and things that are interesting but I don't want to do that either. I just end up skimming the article and not even remembering what I just read.

I've also noticed that I'm feeling a bit lonely adding to my unwanted feeling. It feels off though because I do hang out with people every week and in fact I'm going to hang out tomorrow with Lester and Diana and that'll be cool and maybe this weekend with Pedro. And all I want tonight was to just talk to someone and just have like a conversation that'll be interesting. It failed with someone to be honest lol which was like a slap in the face for me. But that's okay I don't realllyyy take it to heart but I kinda do. Eh in defense, I didn't make it sound super important. Whatever I won't think much of it. I think I also kinda miss talking to Diana, just a bit. Man stop being bussyy :P

Edit: hey! You're the best :D