She likes me, she likes me not

Hmm so on Saturday, at 130 ish pm, I went to do laundry, well get my clothes out of the dryer and into my basket.  And when I opened the door, there was a girl putting her clothes in the dryer.  And I was taking out my clothes from the dryer and there was a really long awkward moment because it's just awkward... and then she breaks the silence by asking me if i'm on this floor.  And I say yes, I just live right over there *points* and.. she's like OH yeah I live on that side too! I'm in lauren's suite.  And i'm like. what really?! I never see you there >_> And she says well it's cause i'm studying usually x_x.  She was nice :D and pretty cute I guess.  

Maybe i'm attracted to quiet girls who study all day... >_>

Sorry her name was Martina.

Anyway, sadly I don't think I can have her.  No, I don't know if she's taken, but if she wasn't taken then it's still like sorry I don't think I can date you T_T even though you may be an awesome person.  I may be just thinking too much into the future.  And i'm trying to juggle everything at once... What about summer vacation?  She lives in norcal, San Mateo, No I didn't stalk her, I just happened to see her name on the door and everybody's name has cities of where they live under them.  Anyway, Summer? 3 whole months.  And theres no possible way that I can see her. And my mom won't like the idea that I have a girlfriend again *sigh* Plus if I date her. Think about the time frame, Let's say we get together the beginning of 2nd quarter, that leaves 6 months of dating, Yay that's fun.  And then comes summer 3 months of not seeing each other.  That's just depressing. I don't really want to go through a break up =_=  To be honest the one I went through was hard enough that I can handle and got over in a week.  I really don't want ot be lamenting over a girl I love that'll take a month or two to get over.  That's just painful.  I think... I'll get a car first?  Next year Maybe then i'll have a girlfriend.  SO I can also have time to recollect, be more mature, and at least be ready to be a boyfriend.  So far, I think i'm not ready to be one yet, at least not a good one up to my own personal standards.  I want her to feel like a princess basically, and that I"m alwas there.  Like I'm your friend :D, but i'm yours, personally yours.  That's who I want to be.  I want to be more than a friend to her, I want her to rely on me and I want to be there and also give her anything she wants.  And seeing her over the summer, definitely needs to be a requirement xD 

Mmmm at least I know we can just be friends :D