Goodbye my Lover, Goodbye my Friend.

I can't help but notice a drift in friendship, and i'm not talking about those who are not in the same college as me, but more of those who are in the same college as me.  So if you don't go to the same school as I do, that's okay, but if you do consider this.  Most likely the readers are not going the audience i'm targeting.  In fact i'm just going to say that i'm targeting only 2 people, who are here.  In some slight chance that they do read this, read it and know that I'm telling you straight up what's happening.  

I'm going to make this anonymous as possible, but there are always hints to know who it is just because I can't write that well.  Anyway onto what i'm going to say.

I've known you for a very long time, but it feels as if we're drifting away.  We used to talk a lot on aim, but we're busy now, we're in college and that's understandable.  I haven't exactly been able to hang out wth you, nor do I call you because I don't know.  That's my fault.  But it really feels as if we're both in different worlds now and somehow we just don't connect anymore.  I'm afraid that i've been a bad friend to you because you ask for small favors and yet I can't accomplish that, and then you get mad.  You never used to get mad, or at least you never showed it to the extent that I felt like a failure.  I understand that it's always been there, but it was just that image of you, the image of you that I still hold that I try and preserve while you slowly chip away the foundation of what I hold and treasure you dearly.  But in the end I can't do anything about it, since we're just two different people.  I've always wished we could just stay friends, but i'm starting to lose sight of what the future is.  You'll be in your world being dragged into another while I just stay here hoping that you'll come back.  Maybe I should go after you and bring you back, but did you even want me back?  I feel like an awkward turtle, and I feel like I always get in your way.  Maybe youre trying to escape me.  I doubt I wasn't a good enough friend, but I really don't know what's up now.

I've known you for a less amount of time.  We used to hang out a lot and then it just started trailing off into the distance.  I don't know what's up with that either.  Suddenly you just became really busy, and when I try to hang out with you, it seems you're busy, and you never exactly call me to hang out either.  I really don't want our friendship to deteriorate, but it is, and I can't seem to do anything about it.  For the readers, in case you're wondering, it wasn't your fault, Now i'm referring to one person.  It wasn't your fault.  It's just life.  Stop trying to think it was your fault please.  If not you, and me, it was him okay?  I really hope we get to hang out soon otherwise we really won't this year. 

Why is it that the friend that is closer to me, I am willing to let go easier?  Can I be too great of a friend, such that I am worried of being selfish for you to be my friend and not others?  Is that why i'm losing you and you getting tired of me?